I've never seen a smile that can light the room like yours.

I don't think i wanna blog here no more..

Xanga? Ladidum.

P.S : There were too many pictures to choose from. :(

I remember meeting RL for the first time back when I was fresh meat at SMKDJ through the person who ironically brought us together at the end.
I barely saw much of RL at school 'cause she was like a full moon that only appeared on rare occassions so there wasn't much opportunity to be acquainted you see.

Besides that,everyone thought I was racist against indians anyway,which was partially true at that time.

What irony that I'd end up with an indian as my closest friend.
But then again,she's practically chinese through my eyes.














Through the course of 4 years give or take,I've gone through so much with this girl.The best December ever,pointlessly fun roadtrips,late night gallivanting,the most epic concerts ever,signature stoning,anti-social ipod times,unnecessary drama,missing-the-train-because-I-forgot-to-take-my-luggage-bag and missing-the-bus-because-we-were-at-the-wrong-platform moments,stupid tag lines like "scotty doesn't know"&"yippi-ki-yay",weekly Hartamas ritual,failed and successful drunken nights,getting lost on the road and blasting road mixes while wandering around,walking into MOS on ladies night and having a blast eventhough it's just the 2 of us.

There's just too many to list out,but those are off the top of my head.

On the surface she might not seem like it,but inside she's made of Adamantium(You know,like the metal in Wolverines body)with a pink gummy heart covered with sparkly magical pixie dust that makes her that much more twisted.
This tough cookie is practically impenetrable. (Ew.)
Through all the rough patches,she was always there and she does not fail to aid the situation.
She's like the wind that blows the last line of cocaine away when I'm close to OD-ing,the condom/pepperspray when I'm about to get fucked by some guy with HIV/AIDs or in other words,my life vest during a crash.

So few of you could only imagine what it was like when she was leaving for that stinkin country,Aussie.I'm not exaggerating when I say that it felt like a part of me was gone.It's like taking apple aloe vera away from me,forever. (o.o)
I had been so accustomed to RL always being there that it was overwhelming how so much changed.

When I wanted to get out of the house,I'd pick up the phone and start dialing RL's number and eventually realize that she isn't here anymore.
Or when I'd be laughing hysterically at something and I'll start looking around and expecting RL to be laughing with me and end up finding myself laughing alone.
And it doesn't help much that everything I do reminds me of the good times,From Viva La Bam to Creme Brulee to Hartamas Square's sweet&sour chicken with fried rice.
Don't even get me started on the music that just conjures up reminders that you're all the way there and I'm stuck here.

That bitch might as well piss all over my life to mark her territory,really.


Look,so cool right.It's like half of her face in 1 picture and half of my face in the other.

So this is where shows like OneTreeHill & The OC comes in handy,contrary to popular belief that it's just some stupid series,it helps la,I slowly accepted her absence and adjusted.Albeit I still miss her a fuckloads,but at least we still contact each other frequently & it is quite freaky but cool how we get all telepathic sometimes and that just makes it a whole lot more comforting.


Ah yes,Skype. :)

But still,
I can't believe I'm not there to celebrate your EIGHTEENTH birthday with you,'Ma.
actually,just not being there with you for that matter.

I'm sorry I can't pull off any cool shit like fly over there for your birthday.
Fuck SPM seriously,SPM ruins lives.
& I'm still half way with your suppose-to-be-christmas-present.I'm quite half assed.Haha
But I do hope you have the most blow-your-brains-out shit-in-your-pants kickass 18th ever.
Don't get too wasted and use rubber okay?
I'll see you in June.We'll paint the whole town red this time.Ok,you can paint it pink la.



Oh,there was meant to be a post like this back when you left.But you see,I teared up like a baby typing this post and that is exactly why it has been delayed for so long.Oh fuck me,and you just had to message me on MSN eventhough I'm appearing offline.Fine example of the telepathic thing.Ugh,So this is to make up for that.But for today,



HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY RAYMA LAZARRA!

Love you long time,RL.
And yes,You're my "person" too.Fuckin' Christina yang.
<33333

Coward.

Pick on someone who has the ability to defend themselves you fuckwit.That's a fight.

Yeah, so it's been roughly around 3 weeks since my short stint back in Malaysia. How time passes man! Feels like i was back there just last week, but it's already been three and i've already started my second semester here and I've got another 1 month to my birthday , another 3 to finishing and starting my degree. I swear, it's all so fast. Slightly overwhelming really. So,home was...home. I wouldn't say it felt comfortable because it wasn't all that comfortable. What? With the weather totally fucking me over on the VERY FIRST DAY..or..the drama that followed being back home. But it was definitely fun, it was rough but funfunfun. I miss everyone so bad now, being back just made me miss everyone alot more. 3 more months and i'm back again! I missed Brisbane quite abit though, but home was filled with the bestest of people and awesomepossum food!


8th February.
The first day was really..god. I hate Singapore, they stole my Jager :( So i whined about it for.. days . But the moment i stepped outta the terminals and check in i saw the bestest people in the world who gave a shit to wake up at 6am/7am to be able to stand at the waiting area at 8am SHARP to pick me up! For that, the amount of gratitude and love i have for each of you right.. i swear. I don't even know where to begin :) :) Trina,Louis,Tuck,Jervis,Faritz,Izzy,Syam,Rizzo & Naz ; you guys are AWESOME *chokes everyone with hugs*♥ ♥ ♥ Headed to my house for breakfast to see my rents and my doggie ♥ i missed my mommy and aunt so much :( and then headed to Kayu ( ROTI TELUR!!!!!!!!) to meet Jeremy who came back from NS for abit. I really don't remember what i did EVERYDAY, but everyday was spent with the above people and a few additions.

heehee :D

Bangsar ;

Visiting West & Dees ; Went to Help Uni/College to visit Westchester with Dees & Rizzo. On the way back, Rizzo took like..4 de-tours , dropped my touch&go card on the road BEFORE the touch&go booth. Had to stop the car and get it.. thank goodness we didn't really disrupt the traffic :p

Space/ MOS ;

Trina & Dees slept over, decided to check out Heritage Row. The weather was a major mood killer, the rain was...ugh. Space was relatively empty, Naj told me people usually go there on Friday instead of Thursdays -_- Wtf man, wtf. Bailed and went to MOS instead. MOS was awesome la, awesome music again. Jagers!! Thanks for driving Na!

Pavillion ;

Izzy was nice enough to teman me to go shopping :) Hariz just tagged along cuz he was bored -_-" Ok , nola! Hariz also wanted to teman meee :) :) Man, there was hardly anything to buy oke :( Quite depressing. Quite. Left after a couple of hours, stopped by Hartamas to buy dvds, then got a call from Trina who was in college. Drove to Subang and picked her up along with Shafique who DID NOT tell me his friend was going to be coming along. Squishsquish*.

Bar Celona -
Tuck's friends were in Bar Celona so we decided to go join his friend , Adrian who was having his birthday there. I've never seen more lala people in my life. The music was...meh. I was not impressed -_-" Stupid place. Tuck got absolutely smashed; on FOUR mixes. Four. Yes, four. He was on the floor, puking and shiz. Boy can't drink for shit.

Izzy's 18th Birthday.
Milsya planned this whole ordeal. Milsya went to pick Izzy up , and then called me and i said i was still getting ready ( which i wasn't )and asked them to come in the house first to wait, so Izzy walked in ... and SURPRIIIISEEEE!

Milsya's aunt's cupcakes are the bomb shiznitt. Holy balls okay. They were the best tasting cupcakes EVER. Beats fucken Cuppcakes + that..other cupcake shop. SIGH, they were AWESOMEEE. Izzy was nice enough to leave some for me :p We had shissha at my place, courtesy of Adam. The guys slept over at my place and we ended up watching DVDS again :p

Hot & Cold -
Here's to sitting outside my house, on egyptian cotton smoking and drinking water till 6 in the morning ♥ ♥ oh, and laughing.. a looooot of laughing .

Rachel & Tuck's Birthday -
Rachel turned 18 whilst i was there, Trina and i headed to her place to surprise her. That was epic man, she was SO surprised it was hilarious! After that, her friends and tuck's friends had a birthday collaboration since it was his 19th birthday. We celebrated in Matsuba :)
* photo credits goes to Andrew :)

Awww :) Birthday people!

Later on ; a bunch of us decided to go to Sunway after the dinner. Jia Liang had to "deal" with some stuff. Bummed in some..dodgy bar place in Sunway. The boys seemed to have had a loooot of fun. Yeah, i changed -_-






But then TrizzleyTriz ( yeah new name :P ) had a beyond brilliant idea aye. MOS. So we kindaaaa ditched them poor boys for abit, and went to MOS ourselves because ;
1. It was Thursday = Ladies Night = Free Entry.

2. ..We were bored la, then what?

So in we went! Holy crap it was funtastic. I had my jagers(!!!!!!). Trina couldn't try it cuz she was sick :( But awesome la, i couldn't feel how the floor was vibrating though.. didn't feel like it was to me. But meh, i had so much fun! And it was jst the both of us. I was so exhausted after that and contented ; you know..with the jagers <3>

te extrano mucho :(



So the day before i left, i went jamming with the boys :p Hehe, that was really fun! Aaron is a damn good drummer la!! They played their own songs and so cute ok, they sang a remixed version of Check Yes Juliet , with my name in it :p HEHEHEE. So cute. Later on , went to FS,shissha-ed ladida.







Then Zy,Milsya,Rizzo & Naz slept over. Najee & Dinie stopped by for abit. I forgot what we watched :p Izzat is getting better at staying awake during movies -_-" The next morning , we said our goodbyes and they left :( Then Vanessa & Jeremy came over to help me pack and shizz, followed by Adrian. We had shots at my house and someone got drunk :p Siiiiiiigh, i miss all of you. Thanks so much for hanging out with la , you guys made me feel so special. The endless DVD marathons ( which kinda tak jadi cuz someone fell asleep :p ) , and Genting and club-hopping and mamak sesh's.







i love love love you guys. see you in 3 months!