asphyxiated .

My head feels weak and suddenly

It's clear to see it's not them but me

Who's lost my self-identity

And I hide behind these books I read

While scribbling my poetry

Like art could save a wretch like me

With some ideal ideology

That no one could hope to achieve

And I'm never real, it's just a sketch of me

And everything I've made is trite and cheap

And a waste

Of paint, of tape, of time.